She closed the book, feeling a bit disappointed with the ending. But not disappointed enough to slam the book on the table, her love of books is more than that. Still, her mind is reeling from the book she just finished. Technically, the ending is a happy one, but she thinks stuff like movies and books is a subjective issue. Not everybody is going to love a particular book or movie the same way she does. And vice versa.
And she thinks the ending sucks, despite her logical mind keep saying in her head that it is the most realistic ending. Although she is a romantic deep in her heart, her mind dominates her heart. Maybe that is why she still haven't found her love. Or will she ever find it. Because she thinks she is getting more and more cynical about the whole thing called love. Take the book for example, it's about a girl who find herself falling in love with her boss, the super cool rock god. The bad boy. But it ends with the girl chose his best friend instead of him. The good boy. She doesn't understand it. The girl said she loves the bad boy, but she chose the good boy. No, no, she doesn't have any prejudice against the good boy, but... She feels that it is ok if the girl didn't choose the bad boy, but she rather prefer that the story ends with the girl gets better and independent, instead of just go and be with the good boy. Because she wonders if the girl really loves the good boy or not.
Her mind totally understand the girl in the story. Because the girl chose realistically. What future does she have with a rock star who drinks, do drugs and sex with all those girls compared with his best friend who is more stable, have same interests as her, and she feels secure with him. It is a battle between the romantic heart and the logical mind.
I guess she should have read the ending first before she buy the book. Haha. So, she closed the book and reached for a different one, which surely guarantees an ending that she will be satisfied with. Her brother is right, why do you need the ending if it is possible that you would not like it? Just imagine your own ending that will satisfy you and then end of story. But, she doesn't see book-reading that way. She rather follows the book even if the ending disappoints her. She loves being absorbed into the world of a book.
Her mind couldn't stop thinking about the ending. She wonders, what if she had to make a decision like that someday. Who would she choose? The bad boy or the good boy? Or what if she met the good boy, should she settle straight away or leave him and hang on to that ridiculous wish that her bad boy or frog prince will come to her one day? She snorts, that day could be when she is way past the "deadline". She hates the deadline. 30. Distractedly, she switched on the TV and voila, the channel is showing Dalja's Spring, one of her favourite K-drama. The heroine is 33 years old and now only she found her man, the handsome hero (fan-girl sigh) who is by the way 6 years younger than her. She smiled, if only she can be like her...
PS. ..ONLY IF she haven't found her other half before turning 33 like the heroine.
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